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The Branches of Infertility

A few times I've seen it mentioned that one couples infertility eventually, in one way or another affects everyone who cares for them.  I believe I've even advised a newby about that before.  But, I'm not sure that I really understood the truth of that until today.  I would never hurt my family for anything in the world, and I find myself in actual physical pain if any of them are hurting.  And yet, today I saw basically all of them hurting and at least part of it was due to infertility.  MY infertiltiy.  This horrible thing that I carry around inside of me everyday was knawing on my family.  And there is nothing that I can do to remove it.  I can't loose it, change it, or make it noncomplicated.  Infertiltiy is like a disease that infects whole families.  I can't tell you the tears that I've spent, and I know that my parents have ached over it too.  Now I understand that my brother and his family have suffered for it also.  My little brother that I just want to protect from everything.  Oh how we have all been affected by this.  You have no idea how much I want to control the situation.  Some how make everything go away.  I want my problem to be my problem only.  I've learned to deal with the pain for myself.  But, I can't.  God made me.  He put me with my parents.  He created my brother and made me his big sister.  He brought his wife to him, way before I had ever given the word "infertility" a second thought.  I'm learning more and more that I have no control over anything.  Doesn't matter what I want.  God set things up exactly as they are.  I wish that He hadn't.  But, He did.  I will never fully understand why God made me this way.  I don't think I have the ability to understand why it has to touch my family.  All I can do is pray for the majority of the pain to be over soon for all of us(in whatever conclusion that maybe), and to pray for strength.  I have no choice but to praise Him in even this too. 

Some facts about FEA

I imagine most people have never heard of such a thing as frozen embryo adoption.  But, when one's life has been so permiated by infertility and the various options of growing a family besides typical conception ~ you learn as much as you can about everything weither you really wanted to or not.  Fertility becomes your life.  Well, anyway, if you are curious about the process of embryo adoption here is a wonderful post about it from a woman who is living it.  Congrats on your miracle Jess!
My opinion: Frozen Embryo Adoption is the only morally correct thing to do with extra embryos that are not going to be used by the orginal donors.  I spit on human embryo stem cell research! 

Flip Flops!

Its so warm here today I dug out a pair from last year.  I really love me a pair of flip flops.  They are so comfy and easy.  Now I need to paint my piggies.

Micah 6:8

Today's small thing is simply to post this verse somewhere.  So I created this picture to post as my wallpaper.  You can find the small thing here.

11 weeks old!

Shelby @ 11 weeks old! She is so funny. Last night she found her voice- her barking voice that is. Its a squeeky girly bark. She's been trying it out ever since.

Hey, whats under there?

This is my dresser on the sloppy pill...

and this is my dresser on the clean pill....
any questions?
Ok, so thats silly... but it reminded me of those psa's about your brain on drugs they used to show when I was a kid. I really like to be organized, but sometimes the things around me are not and after a while you get used to it. I did this in response to Rachel Anne's Home Sanctuary Today's Small Thing. Get on over there and check it out.

Baby Wrap!

Click on the pic to visit the Moby Wrap website.

We bought a moby wrap this week. I went with a plain black one. I figured it was best since we don't know which gender we are getting. Today we had fun trying to learn to wrap it. Its much easier than you would think. I'm really excited about baby wearing!

New Puppy

This is Shelby! She's an Aulstrailan Shepard mix. She's around 8 weeks old. We brought her home today. So far, everything is going great!

Buy a t-shirt & support our adoption

Help me be a mommy! My husband and I are selling t-shirts to raise money for our adoption. Up to 45% of the cost of each shirt goes into an account for our adoption. Only the shirts on our website count towards us.

Another New Nephew

This is "A". My husband's biological brother's baby. You can read about that here.

Me holding him.
He was born yesterday @ 2:22 p.m. Weighing in at 7lbs 3oz & 19 inches long.

My new best friend

Introducing ~~~~~

my new best friend

isn't she gorgeous!

Last Friday night, while we were giving our cat a bath in the kitchen sink our old stove made a weird popping noise and then it seemed that it was done serving me. Over the weekend we discussed our options. We could have bought a nice used one from some friends of ours. We could have bought a hot plate until we could save some money for a new stove. We could have just used our microwave and outdoor grill for a while. But, we decided to go ahead and purchase a new stove on credit. We got it with no interest and no payments for a year, but we will pay that off in a few weeks when we get our tax return. Anyway, we got it home and hooked it up and it didn't seem to be working either. We started to consider that there was another problem. Hubby discovered that there was a fried wire in the wall outlet. So, I guess we really didn't need a new stove after all. However, we've decided to keep the new one. The old one was very, very old. It probably wouldn't have lasted much longer anyway.

Fighting snakes

I realize just the site of this really scares some people. Like my dad for example. But, it doesn't do much for me at all. I guess if I lived in a region with poisonness snakes that might be a different story. I've always thought snakes were interesting. Most animals seem interesting to me. Most American snakes are not venomous. This snake is supposed to be an Anaconda. Anacondas won't bite you, they just swallow you whole.
Anyway, our pastor talked about snakes today in his sermon. Well, only at the end - but it affected me profoundly. Actually, his sermon was about the basic "be fisher's of men" story. At the end he told a story about a little boy. The little boy's momma told him to go fishing and catch dinner. So, he and his buddy start off for the fishn' hole (our pastor is a good ol' boy from Alabama) and on the way they see a big group of snakes. They start messing with the snakes, and pretty soon it was dark. The little boy had to come home without any fish. His mom asked him why he had come home empty handed and he told her he had been "fighting snakes".
I've been around and around lately about what God's will is for my life. With this story, it became very clear to me. I've been in church all my life, and been a christian since I was 14 - but never did I actually understand what God's will is for my life. His desire for me. I guess I'm really thick headed; I don't know. God's will for my life is to go fishing. Fishing for men. Instead, I've been fighting snakes. I've been putting everything else before His real will for my life. Everything that I think that I want. A perfect marriage, a perfect home, a perfect self as a wife, children. I've used the adoption to overshadow what I should be doing with myself. Simply, I should be telling others about Jesus. No wonder I've been so miserable most of the time. Miserable with the adoption. Miserable with everything. I AM NOT IN GOD'S WILL! Duh!
As God's timing is perfect timing - our pastor is starting a new class on Wednesday nights about how to witness to the lost. I'm going to check that out and see if I can't learn how. I'll be blogging my progress.
If you are fighting snakes - let them slither off and get yourself right with the Lord.

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just got myself all fixed up for mobile blogging

Facebook killed the blog

I used to think that the world revolved around the blog. Night and day I would be constantly thinking of things to blog about. I loved to visit other blogs and see what other people were doing in their lives and frequent blogs with whom I had commen interests and opinions. It was the coolest thing since sliced store bought bread. But, then I was introduced to facebook. Thats when the transition began. Now, my sun rising and sets on fb. I've played all the games, and lost interest. I'm well over a 100 friends, and noone ever says anything that amuses me much. Recently I was thinking that I really do have a few things to say. Things that I can't share on facebook because that status thing only allows you so many characters. Where could I share these thoughts, opinions, and experiances? Hey, wait a minute, didn't I used to have somewhere to do that?! What was that called? Oh yeah, BLOG. So, here I am. I have returned to you again my dear sweet blog. Please forgive my absense. I can't promise never to peak at your arch enemy - facebook. But I can say that I see much blogging in my near future.

Merry Christmas!

Merry Christmas!

A Baby Changes Everything

A Baby Changes Everything by Faith Hill

Teenage girl, much too young

Unprepared for what`s to come

A baby changes everything

Not a ring

On her hand

All her dreams and all her plans

A baby changes everything (x2)

The man she loves she`s never touched

How will she keep his trust

A baby changes everything (x2)

And she cries, oh she cries

She has to leave, go far away

Heaven knows she can`t stay

A baby changes everything
She can feel it`s coming soon

There`s no place, there`s no room

A baby changes everything (x2)

And she cries and she cries o she cries

Shepherds own they got their ?Star shines down?

Choir of angels say

Glory to the newborn king

A baby changes everything (x2)

Everything, everything, every day

Hallelujah x4

My whole life is turned around

I was lost and now i`m found

A baby changes everything (x2)

I am a Chocolatier!

I joined this business last week and I finally got my kit yesterday. I have mountains of chocolate and I can't eat it. Anyway.... I have become an indepedent chocolatier, aka a consultant. The company is Dove Chocolate Discoveries. It is my newest attempt to raise money for our adoption. Chocolate and parties- now who doesn't love that. I even have me own business website: www.dove-chocolate-discoveries.com/bhuffman. Check it out and see the products (everything from brownie mix, sugar-free chocolate, and even chocolate martini mix) and if you live in my area host a chocolate tasting party with me.

Birthday

Today was my birthday. I turned 28. 28 feels pretty unreal. I never thought that I would still be childless at 28.

Renewal Wedding

This weekend I attended a vow renewal wedding. Dan & Becky are my sister-in-law's parents. I've come to know them as my in-laws too. They love my brother and they are wonderful grandparent's to my niece and nephew.

I didn't make this cake, but I thought it was beautiful. I loved the autumn colors and theme.

Why, you ask, did you post pictures of people that I don't know. Well, because I took the pictures and I was proud of what a great job I did taking them.