In case you didn't notice, most of my life has a soundtrack. I have a jukebox in my brain. There are some changes happening. For the past two years I've worked within my home. I've been preparing for a baby. One that's coming any moment now- I just know it. Yeah, well.... Life keeps rolling on. For a couple months now we've been having a hard time with our mortgage company. We tried to refinance our home loan with a local bank. Even though they led us to believe that we were approved, it didn't work out. While they were dragging their feet, my hubby's credit began to lower since we couldn't afford to pay our raised payments. Finally, it became very clear that we were going to have to try and work something out with our original loan. We've been talking to them about taking the escrow out of our payments (we've already got our taxes & insurance coming directly to us now), but they say that there's nothing they can do for us until we get our payments caught up. So, that's what we are doing. We are sending them another check tomorrow and that should have us caught up. Now, if we don't get something worked out with them...... well, we can't afford to pay what they want. So, we either have to sell the house (which I might as well tell you, is impossible) or sign it over to the bank. That would hurt my hubby's credit - but, as I said it is already imperfect now. What does this mean for us? Well, we will have to move. Where? I don't know. I do know that they won't give us a baby if we are homeless. My parents keep telling us that we won't be homeless as long as they are alive. That is comforting. Sort of. Even if we have a home to live in, they still won't give us a baby if we are living with my parents. We have to be able to show that we are responsible and capable of providing for a child. Living with your mommy- isn't doing that. Also, we have to redo our homestudy in August since its been two years. They will do a credit check. So, if they haven't found out that we are homeless, they will find out that our credit isn't as good as it used to be. Another reason not to give us a baby.
Ok. So with all of that explained, I can safely say that there are some serious changes soon to come. Even if we do work something out with them with this house and get everything resolved, we've already decided that we really need to get out of this sink hole. This is not a homeowners pie in the sky right now. Basically, one way or another I see us living somewhere else by Christmas. Renting isn't looking to bad folks. Our dream is to buy some land in the country, around 5 acres or so and putting a double wide on it. Having a pasture with some horses & cows. A barn with some chickens & ducks. A big garden with vegetables and fruit. Yeah, we want to be farmers. I grew up in the country. I know how great it would be to raise a child there. Where it's quiet. I want a porch where I can go out in the morning and read my Bible with a cup of tea and be at peace.
Today I got a job. Like a real one. Outside of my home. At a popular large retail store. More or less, I will be deep frying food all day. Thank God I get to wear gloves. Isn't that precious. *Disgusted Sigh* I know I'm going to be standing there with grease splattering my clothes and wondering how I got to that point. While this battle with our mortgage company goes on, I know we are going to need extra money to pay our regular bills. I was surprised at how easy it was to get a job. I guess it is what God wants me to do right now. I do what I need to do when I need to do it. But, I will be dreaming of the day that I quit. When I can be in my home (where ever it is), rocking my baby to sleep. It's just going to take more work. More prayer. More waiting. More patients. More love. More faith. Oh Lord....... So much more faith.
and this is my dresser on the clean pill....
any questions?
and this is my shower on drugs-
no not really. Its my shower after months of not being cleaned. Cleaning the shower is my very least favorite chore. I loath it. Your probably thinking, "I've never seen anything so disgusting!" yeah well, that's life.
Applaud here- 
click on the pic. to check it out
Heres what I've been up to:
Cleaning
Taking care of Little Miss
Learning to make Cheescake
Thinking about adoption- my husband and I have decided that we want an older baby/toddler (6mos.-18mos.)
Reading- I just finished 12 Steps To Becoming A More Organized Woman & A Family Raised On Sunshine - I reccomend both
Craving blogger
I'm enjoying being at home, but I miss being on-line everyday. Can't have it all. I'll be on-line as much as I can.
Its still hotter than who wouldn't have it: something else we say.Mrs. Pear is writing a book about women leaving the work place and staying home. She is asking some thought provoking questions in order to reaserch for her book. Along with the questions, she is having a giveaway. Get on over there, leave a comment answering her questions and enter the contest. Remember to include your email, I actually did..... once. Hopefully, she knows where to find me.
Hubby ran in his first derby for the summer on Saturday. He got 6 place, but he had fun. His next one will probably be in two weeks. It has been so hot.
I finished my first scrapbooking project Saturday. I made one for my neice. She turned 16 last Wednesday and I used her prom pictures from this year. I really enjoyed scrapbooking.
Along with the gas prices, food and other grocery items have been going up in expense. I got so flustered this weekend that in one store hubby and I left our cart in the isle (frozen food and all) and walked out. Not only were the items I needed too expensive, but they were also poor quality. I picked up some chicken breasts and they were literally swimming in... well... you know what. I grabbed a tub of ricotta cheese, and it was a month expired. I was forced to buy milk at $3.15 a gallon at another store, but it was the cheapest in town. Hows a gal supposed to be frugal with all of this going on?
Say Hello to my little friend!
I was so pleased and excited this morning when I logged on and discovered 7 comments to moderate. To add further to my elation, non of them were negative. All were published.
Theres a rumor that we have bad weather coming. I say rumor because you never know if the metoroligist knows for sure or not. Anyway, I made sure there was a clean spot for me in the closet this morning before I left for work. I'm hopeing to get home before it gets bad. Here, in my office, there really isn't a good place to go if I needed to. I guess I would just get under my desk. I remember doing that in school. We would have Tornado drills and we would either get under our desks (if they were sterdy) or we would line up against a wall and get into the fetal position. My mom tells that when she was a kid they would have bomb drills. Even when I was a kid I knew that it was nonsense. You can't hide from radiation by setting under a desk. But, I guess they didn't know much about the atom bomb then, just that it might be coming. We still have bomb shelters in the area. They use them as community Tornado shelters now.
We are talking about camping this weekend. It takes a lot of organizing and preperation to get ready for camping. It makes me tired just thinking about it. But, its a lot of fun.
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This is my pantry full
Its a chore that I've never particullary liked..but I've gotten better at. When we first got married I started buying enough food for two weeks. Hubby gets paid every two weeks and I only shop once in that time period. Then, I would to walmart and spend up to $300 sometimes on food and "essentials". At some point that became impossible because of all the medical bills and stuff. Hubby would get upset if I went without him becuase I would buy for me and spend way to much. I didn't know at the time that I was doing it all wrong. When I gave over control of the money and fincial burdon he started giving me an allowance of $175 for groceries. Then when I learned about spending my husbands money wisely I dertermind that I should do everything possible to get that amount down while still getting everything we needed. So by reading others methods and doing with what I have to work with this is what I've come up with. On Wednesdays we get a sale paper for the local Buehlers Buy-Low. I go through the paper and pick out things that are on sale and that we use. That begins my shopping list. I try to look for things that will make a meal and that begins my menu list for the next two weeks. Then I make a list for what I know I can get cheaper at Save-a-lot (like canned goods) and finally I make a list for Dollar General (cleaning supplies, toliet paper, etc.) and if theirs anything that I absolutly have to go to Wal-mart for (certain kinds of pasta, dog food).
So here is my last list:
Buehlers $40 some
Kelloggs Cereal 5/$10
Puffs Tissues 10/$10 (I bought 4 at a $1.00 a box)
Save Bacon $1.69 (my "maiden" likes bacon)
Save Sugar $1.69
Bisquick Complete Mix 3/$2
Betty Crocker Muffin Mix 3/$2 (also for "maidens" breakfast)
Pasta 5/$5
BC Eggs $.69
Save Paper towels $.69
Kotex 2/$5
Betty Crocker Pizza Crust 2/$1.00
Crab pouch (the only thing I bought regular price)
Save-a-lot $30 some
Canned: carrots, corn, chicken broth
several lbs chicken
ricotta cheese
gravy mix
frozen dinners (hubby to take to work)
Dollar General $12
Detergent
Dish soap
Milk
Wal-Mart $5.00
Razors
Around $87 to $90 all together.
